Title: Beyond The Pain
By: Aiden
Pairing: Horatio/Speed
Fandom: CSI: Miami
Rating: FRAO.
Warning: fluff, slash, angst, hurt/comfort, disability (blindness)
Spoilers: Curse of the Coffin
Beta: Becca/Paul *hugs* Thanks girl.
Summary: Speed was pissed, beyond pissed he was furious.
Author's note: This is AU H is still with CSI but Speed is blind due to congenital glaucoma and owns several nightclubs in Miami. This was supposed to be just one story *headdesk* but when I started to write my brain went haywire, so there will be more.

***

Speed barged into the house and slammed the door shut, "Horatio! Where are you!" he was furious. He took Butch's harness off and released him from his leash.

"Speed?" Horatio walked into the living room.

"Don't, just don't! Are you out of your fucking mind, you've could have been killed!" he turned his face in the direction he had heard his lovers voice.

"I'm right here and I'm fine," Horatio walked up to him and laid his hands on his shoulders. "I had to do something to get that car as far from the city as possible before the bomb exploded."

"Oh right, so the only thing you could think of was to get in that car and drive to the beach?" Speed turned his face towards him. "You've could have died, not able to get out of that car in time."

"Oh babe," he took his agitated lover in his arms. "I'm not going anywhere for a long time, I promise. And if it makes you feel any better, Alexx already gave me her opinion about stupid men doing very stupid things."

"In other words she scared the living daylights out of you, good." Speed laid his head on Horatio's shoulder, all of the sudden very tired. He sighed, "Take me to bed."

Horatio took his hand and lead him towards the bedroom. He took off the sunglasses that were still covering the young man's eyes and slowly started to undress him. He moved his hands up and down Speed's chest, hearing the young man moan. He unbuckled and unzipped his pants and dropped them, he held Tim's hands while the young man kicked of his shoes and got out of his pants and shorts. Horatio took the already hard and throbbing member and started to stroke it.

Speed arched into his touches, "Oh please don't stop."

"I have no intention to," H started to stroke his cock harder and faster. Speed started to fumble with the buttons of H's shirt but became impatient and ripped it open. He wrapped his arms around his waist and started to stroke his back. "Why don't we continue this in bed," H said leading Speed towards the bed. They laid down and he continued stroking Speed till the young man came screaming his name, spilling his seed over H's stomach and hands. He reached down looking for H's hands, brought them to his mouth and started to lick them clean. The redhead moaned when Speed took his fingers in his mouth, sucking on them like on a lollipop.

Speed finished cleaning them and reached down again till he found H's belt, "Uhm you're still overdressed," Speed stated, unbuckling it. H was out of them in seconds and started to kiss the young man's chest, taking a nipple between his teeth and sucked it till it hardened, repeating the same movements with his other nipple. "Oh my god," he panted.

H moved down and saw that his lover was hard, again, "You're such a whore."

"Yeah, but I'm your whore." Speed moaned and arched his back when H swallowed him whole. He started to move his mouth up and down, slowly. "Faster, please faster," Speed moved his hands down till he felt H's hair and grabbed it, pushing his face down. "Oh man you're killing me here."

Horatio obliged and moved faster and harder, sucking hard as if he wanted to force the rich milky substance out of the hard member. He didn't need to wait long, Speed came moaning his name. He swallowed everything till the last drop and he slowly let the now limp member slide out of his mouth. He moved up, taking his lovers mouth in a heated and hungry kiss. "Feeling better?" he asked.

Speed smiled through the kiss, "Much."

H took him in his arms, "Sleep, I'm here and I promise I'm not going anywhere."

***

H walked into the house, put his keys down on the table by the door and his gun and shield in the drawer. He walked into the living room and smiled when he saw his lover lying on the couch fast asleep. Butch was lying in front of it and lifted his head when H walked in. "Hey boy," he walked towards them and crouched down, scratching the dog behind his ear. He looked at Speed and stroked his scruffy cheek, "hey babe, wake up."

Speed stirred and he moaned, "what time is it?" he asked. A yawn escaped him and he slowly opened his eyes.

"Almost ten o'clock," he bent over to him and took his mouth in a headed kiss. Speed answered it, deepening it. "I actually thought you would still be at the club," Horatio stated, pulling back.

"Nope, Joe is closing up, so I had an early evening," Speed smiled at him. "You want something to eat? I'll can make you some scrambled eggs," he sat up and stretched his back.

"If you don't mind, just had a quick bite from the fending machine so I'm hungry."

"Scrambled eggs coming up," Speed stood and walked towards the kitchen. Still after a year H was amazed how his lover walked around the house with so much ease and comfort. "How was work?"

"Quiet for a change," H moved towards the kitchen and sat on one of the stools by the counter.

"So when am I finally going to meet them?" Speed took the frying pan and the ingredients he needed to make the eggs.

"Actually I'll have an idea, why don't I invite them to one of the clubs next weekend?"

"Sounds great, how about 'The Tropical', I'll need to be there anyways. I'll have an interview with a potential new employee."

"Yeah great idea, they're going to love it there."

"Oh before I'll forget you got a call from a Miss Boa Vista. She works for you?"

"Yes she does, I'll wonder why she calls me at home. You answered the phone?"

"Nope it's on the answering machine; she wants to go out with you."

Horatio growled, returned to the living room and clicked the answering machine on. 'Hi Horatio sorry to bother you at home. I was thinking maybe we could go out some day, let me know. See you at work.' He sighed, "she doesn't give up."

"The eggs are ready," Speed said.

Horatio walked back into the kitchen, "you're not bothered by this?"

"No, cause I know you would never go out with her," Speed said as a matter of fact. He leaned over the counter, reached out his hand till he touched H's face, bent over and kissed him, "and if you do I'll tell Alexx." He never met the woman but knew that she would hunt H down.

H smiled and touched his lovers face, Speed leaned into the touch, "I love you to much too even think about going out with that woman, but I wished she would take no for an answer."

"So why don't you just tell her?"

"Oh that will go well, 'listen Miss Vista, I'm not interested in you because I have a boyfriend' yeah right. What if Rick Stetler finds out?"

"It's not like I work for you that should make a difference," he laughed. "Uhm a blind cop, could be interesting though."

"Don't even think about it, then I'll have to share you with half the female population in the lab, not happening."

"Am I that good looking?"

"Yes you are and you're all mine, H said, claiming his mouth.

When they broke off Speed held his hand above the plate with the scrambled eggs, "don't you appreciate my cooking, there cold now."

"Sorry I got distracted, there is this guy who is getting all my attention at this moment."

"Should I'll be jealous?"

H laughed, stood and took Speed's hand, "let me show you just how much I love you." He lead him down the hallway towards the bedroom and send a quick prayer upstairs that they would have a quiet night too.

***

Horatio woke up, content and happy. He stretched and looked at Speed who was still asleep. He sat up and let his eyes roam his lover's body, a smile on his face. Who would have thought that the night he walked into that club was the night his life changed completely.

"Stop that," Speed growled.

A chuckle escaped the redhead; Speed always knew when someone was staring at him, "You look so hot in the morning."

"Yeah right," Speed turned on his back. "Good morning."

H bent forward and took his lovers mouth in a heated kiss. He broke it off reluctantly, "Good morning." He sighed, "I've got to get ready."

Speed growled his disappointment, "I know."

H stood and walked into the bathroom that was attached to the bedroom. Speed walked in a few minutes later and turned on the shower, waited for the right temperature and walked under the water beam. He let the hot water cascading down on him, closed his eyes and moaned. H smiled, he loved to join his lover but he had to get ready for work. He walked back to the bedroom and got dressed; he heard the water being turned off. A few minutes later Speed walked into the bedroom drying his hair, "What do you want for breakfast?" Before H could answer his cell went off.

"Caine speaking," he listened for a few minutes before answering. "I'll be there in twenty minutes," he clicked his phone shut and moved towards Speed, "Sorry babe," he said stroking his scruffy cheek, "I'll have to go."

Speed growled but understood, "I guess so." He took his mouth ,in a hungry and heated kiss. He broke it off reluctantly, "you be home for dinner?"

"Not sure, I call you when I know, okay?" Horatio wished he could stay home with his lover. He put on his coat, kissed Speed and headed out to another crime scene.

"Alexx what do we have?" he walked up to the ME.

"Hi H," she smiled. "Blunt force trauma to the head, you didn't expect your day to start like this did you honey?" She lifted an eyelid, "This is strange."

H bent over to see what Alexx meant, her eyes where already clouded. "Did you find any ID," H thought he knew why.

"Calleigh is looking right now."

H stood straight looking for his ballistic expert, "Calleigh found anything."

"Yeah I did," she held up a wallet.

H walked over to her, Calleigh handed him the wallet and he looked inside, "Just what I thought. Alexx she was blind."

"That explains a lot, you didn't even see it coming. Who could do something like that."

"We're going to find out," Horatio said his anger barely in check.

"H I found a letter," Eric walked up to them. "It's in Braille," he handed him the letter.

"Okay let's get everything to the lab and processed, we're going to get the bastard."

"We need a translator," Calleigh walked into the break room.

"For the letter?" H looked up from a file.

She nodded, "Yep, it's in shorthand, they can't translate it. We need an expert."

H smiled, "I know someone, let me give him a call." He pulled out his phone and hit speed dial, "Yeah Speed do you have time to come to the lab, we'll need your help." He listened for a few minutes and smiled, "Okay see you in a half hour." He clicked his phone shut.

"Who is he?" Calleigh was curious.

"Just a friend. I'll be downstairs to meet him." H walked up to the elevator.

An Half hour later Speed and Butch walked in, "Sir you can't take the dog inside." The officer behind the front desk said.

"Paula it's okay," H walked up to them.

"Oh Lieutenant Caine, I'm sorry but you know that dogs aren't allowed."

"He's a seeing eye dog," Paula started to blush, looked back at Speed and noticed the harness Butch was wearing.

"I'm so sorry sir, I didn't notice."

"That's okay," Speed turned his face towards her and smiled. He took off his sunglasses and commanded Butch to walk forward. "So H you need my help?"

"Yes come with me, I'll explain in the elevator," he walked towards the elevators followed by Speed. The minute the doors closed they where all over each other, "Missed you," H said between kisses.

Speed panted, "Missed you too," he hit H's mouth again hard and demanding.

H grabbed his crotch feeling him getting hard, "Uhm you need to control yourself we're almost there."

"Damn you, now you getting me all hot and bordered," he kissed him again. He broke it off and straightened himself.

H just smiled and kissed him a last time on the cheek. A second later the elevator doors opened. "Let's go to the break room shall we," he said with a straight face, like nothing had happened in the elevator.

"Butch go," Speed growled slightly.

They entered the break room where the rest of them where waiting, "everybody this is Speed, he's a good friend of mine." They had decided not to tell anyone yet till they went to the club this weekend.

"Hi nice meeting you," Calleigh said taking Speed's outstretched hand.

"You're Calleigh," Speed smiled.

Calleigh looked at H in surprise. "Uhm, yeah."

"H told me his bullet girl was a southern lady."

Alexx walked up to him, "Hi Speed, I'm Alexx." She took his hand and looked at H, "Nice meeting you, I can't say H told us about you."

"That's okay," he cocked his head sideways. H knew that he sensed that there was someone else in the room staring at him. "Would you please stop staring and give me a hand."

Eric looked surprised, "Uhm… yeah." He walked up to Speed, "I'm Eric, nice meeting you," he hesitated before shaking Speed's hand.

"You know it won't rub off on you," H heard the sarcasm in his voice.

"Uhm what?" Eric asked

"My blindness," Speed sighed. H knew how he felt about the fact that some people, specially people he wanted to be friends with, treated him like a leper sometimes.

"I'm sorry…. I'm…" Eric practically ran out of the break room.

Alexx followed him, "Eric Delko get your butt back here, now."

Eric walked back to her," I'm sorry Alexx it's just…"

"It's just what?" she demanded to know.

"I never know how to act around people like him."

"Act normal," she laid her hand on his arm. "Like you would around us, that's not so hard right? Okay you don't have to go back in, we'll talk later." Alexx turned and headed back to the break room.

"So H what do you need?" Speed grinned.

***

Speed was on top of him and touched his face, gently letting his fingers explore every inch of it. The wrinkles by his eyes, the lines in his forehead, his eyes, mouth and nose. H liked it when he did that, "So what do you think of the team?"

Speed cocked his head and smiled, "I like them, especially Alexx." He frowned, "but I think Eric has a problem with me, I sensed his hesitation."

"Give him time, he'll come around," H moaned when Speed moved his hands down his chest, stopping just above the red patch of soft hair. "So what time do you expect us tonight?"

Speed bent his head and started to kiss a sensitive spot between H's shoulder and neck, smiling when the redhead moaned again. "Nine," he answered shortly, continuing with the exploration of his lovers body.

"Okay," H panted.

"Now shut up and relax," Speed demanded, kissing and licking his chest, moving down. He smiled when he felt that H was already hard and waiting for him. He swallowed him whole, moving up and down.

"Harder," H said, gasping for air.

Speed hummed and start to move harder and faster, satisfied when he heard him growl. He didn't have to wait long till Horatio came, spilling his seed. He swallowed everything till the last drop, turned his face towards H and smiled. He moved up and took H's mouth in a heated kiss.

H answered it, tasting himself on the young man's lips. "We better get some sleep," he said when they broke off.

Speed nodded laying his head on his chest and listened to his lovers' heartbeat. "I love you."

H kissed his forehead, "I love you too." He looked down and saw that Speed had dosed off. "With all my heart," he whispered.

~.~

"H you know this is an invite only club, right?" Eric was in complete aw.

H smiled, "I know. Let's go in." He walked up to the club and greeted the bouncer, "Hi John."

"LT, nice seeing you tonight and these must be your friends. Welcome ladies, sir." He held the door open for them, "Have a nice evening. Susan will take care of you tonight."

They walked inside and where greeted by a young woman, "LT," she said, kissing him on the cheek.

"Susan, how are you? These are my friends," she greeted everyone. "Let me show you to your table," she walked further into the club. After they where seated she took there order, bent over to H and said, "He's dancing," she pointed to the dance floor and H saw Speed moving to the music, oblivious to what was going on around him.

"Thank you," he smiled at her. "Would you people please excuse me," he addressed his team and stood, walking towards the dance floor.

"Where is he going?" Calleigh followed him with her eyes.

Alexx gasped when they saw how he moved behind a young man and wrapped his arms around his waist. "Who is that?" They witnessed how the young man leaned into the touch and smiled.

"I had no idea H was such a great dancer," Calleigh commented when she saw how both the men swayed and moved to the music as one. She looked closely, "Isn't that his friend Speed, you know, he helped us translate that letter yesterday." H bent forward and said something to Speed; the young man nodded and turned in his arms, facing him. They kissed and H led him off the dance floor.

They approached the table, "So how did the interview go?" they heard H ask.

Speed snorted, "She decided she didn't want to work for a blind guy."

H patted him on his shoulder, "Sorry."

Speed smirked, "that's the third one, and it's getting old."

"Ladies, Eric you all know Speed," H said.

"Hi, nice seeing you all again," Speed smiled.

Alexx looked at H, "Did you forget to mention something?"

Speed grinned, "Oops you're in trouble now."

"You're not helping Speed," he grabbed his hand and kissed his knuckles. "Speed and I are lovers for about a year now."

Calleigh practically bounced, "Oh my. Speed welcome to the family."

"Thank you," Speed smiled turning his face towards Alexx.

She reached out to him, cupping his cheek, "Yes welcome. I'm so happy he found someone."

Speed cocked his head and waited, but nothing came only a mumbled excuse from the young Cuban and he heard how he stood and walked off. "Okay that went well." H heard the frustration in his voice.

"I'm sorry," Alexx said, laying her hand on his.

Speed shrugged, "He isn't the first one. I'm used to it."

H knew when his lover was lying or hurt and at this moment he was both. He took him in his arms and kissed him, "It's not okay. I know how much you want to be friends with all of them, but maybe you need to give him some more time hopefully he comes around."

"I couldn't help overhear your conversation with H earlier," Alexx started.

H smiled at her, "Speed owns this club, several to be exact."

"Oh wow," Calliegh was excited.

A man approached the table, "Sorry to bother you Speed, but we need you for a moment."

"Excuse me," Speed stood, took the mans elbow and walked off with him.

Alexx looked at H and smiled, "He is a nice young man and your happy."

"I am," H simply said, "More then you know."

***

Speed woke up, stretched his hand out searching for his lover and
growled when he only found cold sheets, "early morning," he sighed.

He got out of bed and smiled when he felt a wet nose brushing his
hand, ""you're not H but you will do for now," he scratched the dog
behind his ear, "good morning boy." Butch started to whine, "okay let
me get some pants on."

He got dressed and walked down the hallway towards the kitchen, opened
the patio door and Butch ran out into the back yard. Speed walked over
to the computer and opened it, hit a key and Horatio's voice filled
the room, 'I'm sorry I had to go we have a case, you come over for
lunch? I love you, H.'

Speed smiled, sat down and answered the mail. He cocked his head when
he heard Butch bark, he only did that when something wasn't right and
Speed had learned to relay on Butch' instinct. He stood and walked
back to the kitchen and went outside. "Butch what's wrong boy?"

Butch kept barking and Speed got worried, he knew he just needed to
call Brian there neighbour. He took his cell out and was about to call
him when he heard his voice, "Speed everything okay?" the young man
walked up to him.

"Not sure, Butch keeps barking."

"I'll have a look around, stay here," the fact that Brian was also a
bouncer at one of his clubs was a plus, he was very masculine and had
a black belt in karate. "What the fuck," he heard him curse.

"Brian you're okay?"

The man returned a minute later, "yeah but someone was watching the house."

"What? Who?"

"I couldn't see who it was, but it was an SUV. You're going to call H?"

Speed shook his head, "could be nothing I don't want to worry him."

"Okay listen I don't have to go to work till seven tonight, I'll keep
an eye out."

"Thanks Brian," Speed smiled.

"Hey you sign my check every month, it's the least I can do boss."

Speed smirked, "smart ass."

~.~

Speed walked into the lab at lunch time, "Mr. Speedle good to see
you," Paula greeted him.

"Hi Paula is he in his office?"

"Yeah you can go right up, he's waiting for you."

Speed ordered Butch to walk forward to the elevators. He didn't had to
wait long till one stopped on the ground floor, it opened and he got
on. He wasn't alone and he smelled perfume. "Where do you need to go?"
she asked.

He recognised that voice, it was Ms. Boa Vista, "Horatio's office
please." Butch started to growl, "Butch silent," he ordered but smiled
his dog had always been a good judge of character. It was very
obvious he didn't like her.

"Where here," she said.

"Thank you," he exited the elevator and tried to get his bearings. He
listened to the noises and smiled when he recognised Calleighs voice.

She looked up and saw him, "Speed good to see you." She walked up to
him and kissed him on the cheek.

"Calleigh, how are you?"

"Fine, he is in trace. You want to see him?"

"Yeah that would be great," she took his hand and lead him towards the lab.

"Look who I found," she said when they walked in.

"Speed, just give me a few more minutes okay?" Horatio walked over to
him and gave his arm a quick squeeze.

"Yeah sure," Speed smiled.

"So Mr. Wolfe you will look into those, okay?"

"Sure thing H." He walked up to Speed, "we haven't met yet, I'm Ryan
Wolfe. The other day when you where in the lab I was in the field and
I couldn't make it to the club last weekend."

"Nice meeting you," he shook the young man's hand. "And we'll take a
rain check on the club."

"That would be great," Ryan said.

"Okay people if you don't need me at this moment Speed and I going to
have some lunch, see you all later."

"Yeah sure H you two have fun," Calleigh said.

They where having lunch in one of there favourite restaurants but H
noticed that Speed was very quiet, "Speed everything okay?"

"Yeah I'm fine," he smiled but H wasn't fooled by that.

"Speed what's going on?"

Speed sighed, he should have known he couldn't keep anything from his
lover he was a CSI, "Brian thought that someone was watching the
house."

"What, and you didn't call me?" Speed could feel that H was glaring at him.

"I didn't want you to get worried, it could be nothing."

"Or it could be something," H stated.

"But who would be watching the house?"

H thought about it, "I don't know, someone I put in jail." Now he
really got worried, what if that was true.

"so what are we going to do about it?"

"I will see if I can arrange for a patrol car to canvas the
neighbourhood and have them watch our house."

"Okay but get one thing strait I'm not going to be a prisoner in my own house."

"No of course not, we can have Brian drive you to and from work, okay?"

Speed sighed, "okay."

H stroke his cheek, "forgive me for being worried about you I can't
help it." He knew Speed didn't like to be depending on others for
help. But he just wanted to protect him and if it was someone he put
behind jail Speed just had to tough it out.

***

It had been a few weeks since someone was watching the house and
everything seemed normal again,"Are they leaving now?" Speed asked his
lover.

H snickered, "Yes I told him they could leave, happy?"

"Yes very happy," He smirked.

"I know you hate it when you have to depend on other people, but I was
worried."

Speed reached out his hand and H took it, moving closer to him, "I
know. You're forgiven," The younger man said, kissing his older
boyfriend passionately.

H moaned and felt himself getting hard, "Have…to get… to work," He
panted when they broke apart.

Speed grabbed his hard cock and start to stroke it through his pants,
"Revenge is sweet."

H arched into the touch, "You've got me."

"Uhm no, you better get yourself together before you go to work,"
Speed smiled innocently.

"You're a bad influence Mr. Speedle," H kissed him again and pulled
away before he wouldn't be able to restrain himself any longer.

"I have an idea, how about we go to the park this weekend?"

"Yeah I would love that, I'm not on standby so we'd have all the time
in the world."

"Good and I will make sure your cell phone is off," Speed stated with
a determined look on his face, no one was going to spoil their
weekend.

H checked his watch, "I really have to go now," He kissed Speed one
last time. "I love you and I'll see you at lunch."

"I love you too," Speed smiled. "One o'clock right?"

"Yes, see you then," H said walking towards the door. Speed heard how
he took his badge and gun out of the locked drawer and smiled, "Be
careful."

"I will," H promised. Speed walked to the door when H exited the house, "Bye."

H turned around quickly and took Speed's hand in his, kissing the
knuckles, "Have a good day." He didn't noticed the car that was parked
a few houses down the road.

~.~

Speed was doing some laundry when the VoiceOver on his computer
pinged, notifying him that there was a message, he walked to the
living room and opened the email, "I'm so sorry love, can't make it
for lunch. Forgive me?"

Speed smiled wickedly remembering what he had promised H last time
when he wasn't able to make their lunch date. He sent a mail back
telling H what he would do to him tonight. He stood and whistled when
he made his way back to the laundry room waiting patiently.

The call came late afternoon, "Speedle speaking."

'You're bad,' came H's response.

"I know and you like it."

H moaned, 'How am I going to explain to everyone why I'm not able to
stand up right now?'

Speed grinned, "I told you what I would do to you when you cancelled
another date."

'Damn. Hello, Eric, how can I help you?' Speed heard some talking in
the background and H answered, 'Give me a few minutes will you? Be
right there.'

"You need to go?"

'Yeah I do, this is going to be hard and in more ways than one,' H mumbled.

Speed laughed, "And you call me bad."

H sighed, 'Okay I really got to go, can't wait for what punishment you
have in store for me tonight.'

Speed just grinned, "Love you and see you tonight."

'Love you too and see you later.' H answered and put the phone down.

Speed smiled and stood heading for their bed room, his revenge would
be-oh-so sweet.

***

I enter the house and the first thing I notice is that everything is
quiet, "Speed?" I call out but he doesn't answer.

"Don't turn around," Speed's voice comes from behind me and I smile. I
just stay still, waiting for what's to come. I feel him moving behind
me, his hands start to roam over my back. A moan escapes my lips when
he starts to kiss my neck lightly.

"Don't stop," I plead.

"Shh.. Don't talk," he lays his hands on my shoulders, and before I
can react, he covers my eyes with a silk scarf. Suddenly, I'm more
handicapped then Speed, and he knows it.

He takes my hand and leads me to what I think is the bed room. "Stand
still," he whispers in my ear.

I shudder when his breath brushes over my cheek. I feel him undressing
me, first my suit jacket and shirt. He unbuckles and unzips my pants,
pushing them down with my boxers. He growls when my shoes get in the
way. Quickly, I take them off. He finishes getting me out of my pants
and boxers.

His hands start to roam over my chest, but every time I try to touch
him, he pushes my hands down, "No, not yet," he says, and I so can
imagine his wicked smile.

When he lightly strokes my already hard and throbbing cock, my breath
hitches. I feel him putting something around my cock - a cock ring. I
growl; he just snickers.

"You can come when I say you can," he replies, in a teasing voice.
Taking my hand, he has me on the bed, where he continues to stroke my
cock.

Suddenly, he stops. I hear him fumbling around till I feel something
dripping on my chest and stomach; it's wet and sticky. His hand moves
down to my belly button, and a moment later, I feel how more wet and
sticky stuff drip over me. I can tell by the smell of it that it's
honey.

I hear him put the bottle down and takes something else from the night
stand; he dips it into the honey on my chest and stomach. Pushing
something sweet on my lips, he teased. "Open up and bite." It's a
piece of apple, and my mind flashes back to the last case Calleigh and
I had.

"She told you?" I question.

"Yeah, she did," he giggled. "I'll just make your fantasy come true."

I moan, "She told you that part, too?" I can't believe she did that.
Well, it was Calleigh. I should have expected it.

"Yeah, she asked if she could watch."

"She asked what?" I ask shocked.

"Hey, it's Calleigh, what do you expect," he said a snicker escaping his lips.
I feel him slowly stroke my chest and stomach.

"Now you're all sticky; we need to fix that." He moves his tongue over
my stomach, dipping into my belly button.

I arch into the touch, not able to make a coherent sound, only moans
and growls.
He moves down till he stops just above my erected cock, "Oh, is that
all for me?" he says sweetly, stroking it, "yummy."

The moment he moves his mouth around my hard member, I loose it
completely. "Please let me come?" I beg while reaching out my hands
and grabbing his hair.

He starts to hum, moving up and down so slowly it's driving me crazy.
I know he loves this and he knows how to push my buttons, getting me
right on the edge. My cock is ready to burst. I can feel him smile
around it, before he releases it.

"You've been a bad boy, and I told you what would happen. So this is
my revenge," he says, his voice full of raw emotions.

I love this man so much it hurts.

I hear him fumble. A few moments later, his voice again fills the
room, "I'm gonna prepare you now."

I feel him insert one finger inside of me, moving in and out slowly. I
push my hips up, in silent plea, begging him to move faster. I hear
him snicker. This man is going to be the death of me. "You're killing
me here," I growl.

"Patience, my love." He inserts a second finger but doesn't move them
any faster.

I curse him silently.

He laughs. "Cursing won't help." He heard the softly spoken word. He
pulls out his fingers, a moan escaping his lips.

I smile; he is preparing himself. A moment later, I feel him slowly
entering me. He starts to move in and out, keeping the same pace as
before.

"Please faster," I beg desperately, pushing up my hips. He starts to
move his hands up and down my chest but doesn't pick up the pace.

"You are so beautiful." I hear the emotion in his voice. Suddenly, he
moves faster and harder, hitting that one spot inside my body he knows
will bring me over the edge. "Oh yeah feels so good," he pants.
Moments later, he releases his load inside of me. He removes the cock
ring and seconds later I release myself, screaming his name.

He slowly pulls out of me, and asks, "You're okay?"

"Yeah, I feel great." I feel him licking the cum off my stomach. A
moment later, he takes my mouth in a heated, searing kiss. I can
taste myself mixed in with the honey. "If this is going to be my
punishment, I want more of it."

He snickers, "Any other fantasies?"

"You're a kink whore," I reply.

He takes off my blindfold and smiles, "I didn't hear you complain."

I look down, "Mmhmm, I need a shower you want to join me?" Speed
stretches out his hand, I take it and help him up. "Where did you put
that new toy?"

"Last drawer on the left," he answers. I take it out and we both walk
towards the bathroom.

***

Journal entry - Speed.

I sit here behind the computer contemplating how I should describe
Horatio Caine. You see, I've never laid eyes on him. I hear his voice
every day, and when he talks to me, I can tell by his tone what kind
of mood he's in.

I touch him every day, my fingers have roamed every inch of his body.
I can tell when he is tense or happy, determent or stubborn.

But I've never actually seen him with my own eyes. You see, I'm
blind. I was born blind, doctors call it congenital glaucoma and there
is nothing they could do about it.

It's never stopped me though. I was determined to make something of
myself. Now I own a string of nightclubs and have found my love, my
soul mate.

I see him with my fingers; he loves it when I explore his face with my
sensitive fingers. I never thought I would find someone like him.
Most of the guys I dated just wanted the experience of doing it with a
blind guy. Go figure.

The first time I told him about what I did for a living, he was
surprised but then he said, 'I shouldn't be surprised, you could
probably drive a car if you set your mind to it'. Never found out if I
could though.

His team is great; I love Alexx, and Calleigh has a devious mind. I'm
not sure about Eric though. I feel his hesitation every time we meet.
H says to give him time, that he'll come around eventually.

So like I was saying, how to describe Horatio Caine; a man passionate
about his work, caring, giving a voice to those who no longer can
speak up for themselves. He loves children, he adores them. It always
hits him hard when he gets cases where a child is abused - or worse -
murdered.

He wants to be in control no matter what the situation is. It took me
a while to make him let go when we made love. He was afraid he would
hurt me if he lost control of his body. But now he knows better - and
the way he makes me feel when he lets go - is amazing.

I love him with my body and soul. I see him with my heart.

***

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