Title: Forever Mine
By: fuqmeharry
Pairing: Nick/Greg
Rating: PG
Warnings: none
Summary: Greg explains how exactly he feels for Nick.
Spoilers: none

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From the moment I met you I knew friends we would be
Because you and I were so much alike.

We soon began to hang out every day, then I began to care even more
And I knew I never wanted to think about you not being there.

My caring for you deeply grew and grew
And know the feeling is love.

That love you gave me, nothing could ever compare to
And I'm so glad the person I share it with is you

It is one of the greatest things I feel,
So I just want to say "Thank You"
Because that "love" is the best gift you have ever given me.

You give me
That love so deep and true,
And I love you...i really love you.


On the drive to my house that one day after work to watch the Superbowl, I keep thinking how badly I wanted to show you how I feel. I didn't know how I could but to play music. I played "Iris" by Goo Goo Dolls because every time on the drive I felt that way... I didn't want to leave you. Then it made me think of you, and how I played that song while I was thinking of you like that. I wanted that night to tell you so bad that I loved you a different way.

I needed you to tell me or show me it was ok to kiss you, to hold you, to care about you that way. Now that I can do that, I feel more happy that you know and I'm not alone on this. I want more but I'm afraid about our job, Warrick, Catherine, Sara, Grissom, and how things are going to change. Not between us but around us. I am afraid of change, because all change in my life has mostly been bad.


The night that I had to pull over was because I didn't want to let you go. We were in my old jeep, the black Liberty. I drove that car on purpose and I think it was raining. I drove it because I knew that I wanted to hold you all night. I think I held you on the drive and then when I pulled over we held each other for the longest time. And I know that we went back and forth between holding each other close and kissing each other's hands and I really thought that this could be the night. I remember taking a deep breath and that is when I put my head down on your shoulder, because that was the last second that I could stop. But I know before that - that I did that thing where I had my mouth against your neck and I was breathing, and kissing you so softly. I knew you felt it, of course I knew, but I knew that they were very, very small kisses. And when I had my head on your shoulder I couldn't help but kiss your hand because even though I stopped, I still wanted everything with you so badly.

And now...that you call me yours... I am so happy. I am very happy with every day that you give me. Like I told you today, I would have been happy if you just kissed me. But everything else that has happened between us has only made me fall harder for you and want you more.

I love you.

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