TITLE: Lost & Found: Hush
AUTHOR: sexycazzy
FANDOM: NCIS / CSI: NY
CHARCTER(s)/PAIRING(s): Tony DiNozzo, Adam Ross, Mac Taylor, Don/Danny with breif appearances from Hawkes & Stella and mentiions of past Gibbs/Tony & past Adam/OFC
RATING: PG-15
GENRE: slash, hurt/comfort, romance
WORD COUNT: 4161
SUMMARY: Tony accepts Mac's inviation to Hush and he gets to know Adam more.
WARNING(s): BDSM & D/s theme, some puppy play
SPOILER(s): NCIS is set in Season 4,& CSI:NY is set in Season 5/6 so there might be some minor spoilers for some episodes, but nothing major.
DISCLAIMER: NCIS & CSI:NY and their characters doesn’t belong to me, they belong to the shows and its creators.
WRITER’S NOTE: I'm so sorry that this has not been updated in a very long time but the end is in sight! I promise that in the next few chapters that both teams from CSI:NY and NCIS finally meet and there will be some tense moments between Gibbs and Tony!

Beta~ed by the wonderful djmicheals & murgy31 . All other mistakes/errors are all mine! Comments & feedback always welcome!

Previous story in series - Interlude Three.

Tony stood outside an old building and looked up. It was a huge townhouse bang in the middle with shops and restaurants. The only thing making it stand out was the brightly painted white door at the top of the stairs and the bounder obviously guarding it.

Tony took the business card out of his jacket’s pocket and looked at it – ‘Hush’ – was all it said. He looked up to the townhouse again and wondered if he had made the right decision in coming here.

Tony knew that Mac was trying to help; that he might need somewhere safe to go if he needed to let off some steam. He knew that he couldn’t keep going out to speedy clubs like he went to one the other night where Don caught him. He cringed at the memory but was glad that Don caught him before he could go off with that Dom. Tony knew that he would have regretted it the next day. He thought that Don was a good friend and he could see that Don was a good Dom and was glad he had Danny as his submissive. He saw that they both were in love.

Tony sighed heavily. Ever since leaving Washington Tony had longed to belong to someone; until he met Adam. Suddenly he felt something that he once felt years ago – the want…no…the need to have someone to submit to him. It was a rare thing and he smiled with fondness as he remembered Jerry.

Suddenly the door opened, taking Tony out of his dream-like trance and Mac was smiling and waving at him to come in.

Taking a deep breath, Tony took a step forward.

* * * *

Mac shook hands with Tony and welcomed him to Hush. Tony nodded, quietly as he followed Mac down a dark corridor at the back of the building. He gasped in surprise when the door opened and saw a huge room that looked like a ballroom. To the left, there was a dance floor and he recognized some people from work dancing. Slightly off the floor, there were round tables with people sitting with their submissives either sitting on a low stool or kneeling next to their Doms.

Tony gulped hard as he saw the submissives openly submitting to their Doms. He never had that, not with Gibbs. Gibbs was a private man and preferred to keep their D/s relationship at home – not that he minded. The rest of the team knew about their relationship and Gibbs would often host a small gathering, inviting them over so that Tony could show how proud he was to submit to Gibbs.

Tony shook his head, as he knew that he didn’t need to think about Gibbs - not anymore. Gibbs lost the right once he rejected him as a submissive and Tony didn’t think that they could go back to the way things were before Gibbs left him and went off to Mexico.

No, Tony knew that he had to move forward and ever since meeting Adam, and falling hard for him, he hoped that Adam would help him.

Mac squeezed Tony’s shoulder gently and asked if he was okay.

“Sorry, I was just thinking…” Tony smiled, sadly. Mac nodded, he seemed to understand what Tony meant.

“I know it’s not easy coming here and remembering, but I assure you that if you ever need to talk, we all are here for you,” Mac told Tony, who was surprised.

“Thank you,” Tony said, with a tremble in his voice. He began to realize that he was becoming a part of the team – the family – and smiled. He liked the sound of being part of a family again, with Mac and his team – Stella, Don, Danny, Hawkes and Sid. He didn’t put Adam in the family…not yet…because he was special to him and he wanted to be Adam’s Dom…his Trainer.

Sighing deeply once again, Tony had to stop thinking like that, to have his hopes high. He was here to see what Hush was like, not to think about Gibbs and Adam.

If Mac was worried about Tony, he didn’t say anything. Instead, he said to Tony, “I have to warn you, Adam is here tonight.”

Tony gulped hard as he stared at Mac, in shock. He wasn’t expecting Adam to be here tonight. Feeling a flash of anger at the thought that Mac might have been setting this up and Mac saw it on his face and put a hand up

“I didn’t know he was coming until he texted me, Tony,” Mac explained. Tony pushed the anger down, realizing that Mac was telling the truth.

“I will be fine, Mac,” Tony said, smiling. Mac squeezed the nose of his bridge and sighed heavily, and Tony suddenly felt panicked. He didn’t want to hear what was coming but it was too late.

“He is here in full puppy mode.”

Too shocked to say anything, Tony simply nodded. He didn’t want to see Adam in the puppy mode…not yet. He can’t! Damn Mac for inviting him along tonight, but at the same time, Tony promised Abby that he would tell her all about the club tomorrow. Tony wasn’t the kind to break a promise so all he could do at this stage was to follow Mac to a small area right next to the bar.

He saw Stella and Hawkes chatting on one of the couches and on the opposite; Danny was on his knees, fully clothed. For the first time, Tony saw a collar on the neck and smiled broadly at Don who frowned at first and looked down where Tony was looking at and suddenly he understood. He grinned and put a hand over Danny’s collar and winked at Tony, who laughed quietly.

Mac was at the bar and gestured for him to come over. Tony walked over and sat on one of the high stools next to Mac.

“What do you want to drink?” Mac asked.

“Vodka and tonic, please,” Tony replied. He was about to bring his wallet out of his back pocket when Mac shook his head and told him that he will get the drinks.

Tony put the wallet back and nodded. When the drinks arrived, Tony took his and said thank you to Mac.

“How was Hush set up, Mac?” Tony asked as he sipped his drink.

Mac set his glass of water on the bar and turned to Tony. “My grandfather set it up.”

Tony exclaimed in shock and stared at Mac to see if he was joking but it seemed that Mac was being serious.

“Really?” Tony asked, quietly. Mac nodded, laughing. “Wow, so you were in a family who were involved in the lifestyle?”

“Yes, my grandfather and father were both Dominants and they were also Marines. Back in the old days, Pop set Hush up mostly for those who were in the Navy, as he knew that it was difficult to go to places where they truly could be themselves. When Pop died, my father carried the tradition on and when he died, I took it on,” Mac explained.

“Of course, nowadays, Hush is now for anyone in law enforcement, or in the military. Back in my grandfather’s and father’s days, Hush was only for men who were dominants who were allowed to bring their submissives along. I didn’t agree with that so I changed it so that everyone can come, no matter what their sex is or what their orientation are.”

Tony gaped at Mac and he began to realize that Mac did really care for his follow people…unlike his father. He grumbled at the memories of his father coming at him with a whip to punish him.

Tony saw the frown on Mac’s face and apologized immediately. “I was thinking about my father. I think you were lucky to be in a family where they could be fully open and comfortable with themselves.”

“Your father is a Dom isn’t he?” Mac asked, surprising Tony. Noticing the look of surprise, Mac went on to explain, “It was in your files.”

“Oh, right,” Tony said. “Well, my father wasn’t the kind of Dom you wanted to meet.”

Mac grimaced; he knew what Tony meant by that. He put a hand on Tony’s shoulder and shook his head.

“I’m sorry.”

Tony shook his head. “I’m sorry, I don’t want to talk about him.”

Mac nodded. “That’s fine.”

Tony smiled and they moved over to the conches and began chatting away about football and laughing with Don when Don teased Danny with the collar. Tony began to relax in the atmosphere; he thought that it was a good and nice place to come to occasionally.

He sat back and watched the scene. Hawkes and Stella were whispering quietly as Mac looked on. He recognized the longing look from Mac’s face and realized that Mac was in love with Stella. He knew that it was difficult enough in this lifestyle as a switch. Some Dominants and Submissives thought that switches only wanted to have the cake and eat it. But it wasn’t true. Tony was submissive most of the time but there were some time when he wanted to be on the Top. It was difficult to explain to someone who didn’t understand fully. So he knew that it would be more difficult for Mac and Stella if they were together because they both were Dominants. He sighed deeply and hoped that they would find each other. He saw the same longing on Stella’s face when she looked at Mac.

While he was pondering this, Tony didn’t even see Adam – Scamper – coming in and going over to Mac. When he did finally notice, Tony took a sharp intake of breath. Adam was wearing almost nothing, just boxers with a tail stapled to the boxers. He was wearing paws on his hands and knees with ears down on his head. They were all black and they looked good on Adam.

Tony suddenly sat up as he felt a bugle growing in his jeans and squirmed in his seat. He wanted to look away but Adam looked so beautiful as a puppy. He wanted to go over and take him on his lap and stroke his ears and telling him that he wanted to take care of him.

Tony shuddered hard. He can’t think of Adam like that…not tonight.

Adam – in his puppy mode – hid behind Mac’s legs for a while. Tony frowned and looked to Don for an answer. Don leaned in and whispered, “Scamper is nervous when there are new people around and you are one of them.”

Tony made a small nod and heard Don take a gasp of surprise. He knew that Don was expecting some of kind of a reaction from him. He turned to Don and smiled.

“I had a puppy before, Don, so I know how it works,” Tony explained to Don, in a quiet tone to not scare Adam – Scamper – as now he knew the puppy to be.

“You?” Don looked surprised and Tony chuckled quietly.

“Yeah, me,” Tony smiled.

“I didn’t know that.” Don shook his head. Danny was surprised too and put his head on Don’s lap getting closer so that he could hear what Tony was telling them.

Tony was about to explain when Scamper crawled over to them and titled his head up to Tony as if to ask if it was okay for him to crawl up.

Tony was taken aback and gaped at Ad…Scamper for a few seconds before shaking himself and put a hand out.

Scamper put his nose into Tony’s hand. Tony tried to not make any noise as he felt the puppy’s nose rubbing and smelling. He so wanted to grab Scamper and lift him up on his lap but held back and allowed Scamper to make his decision.

Finally, after a few moments of waiting patently, Scamper crawled up and put his paws on Tony’s knees and looked at him.

Tony asked with his eyes if it was okay if he could stroke his hair and Scamper let out a woof to let him know that it was okay.

Slowly, Tony reached out for Scamper and began to stroke the golden hair. Next to him, Don and Danny looked on with fascination and surprise.

Eventually, Scamper crawled further up and wrapped himself around Tony’s waist with his paws and rested his head on Tony’s lap.

Tony swallowed hard as he put his hand on Scamper’s scruffy beard and stroked it slowly.

“Wow,” Danny let out an exclaim and Don shushed him. Tony frowned, as he looked at Don, puzzled.

“Scamper has never, ever, has gone up to new people the first time he meet them, not like that. He must really like you,” Don explained.

Tony flushed with red cheeks and looked down to see Scamper sleeping peacefully. It dawned on him that Scamper was telling him in his own words that he wanted to be his and Tony smiled.

Turning to his friends, Tony began to explain about his last puppy. “Jerry was my first and hopefully not the last puppy I’ll have. I loved him deeply. He was beautiful when he was in his puppy mode. The puppy’s name was Janito.”

Don stared at Tony at the mention of the name with amusement. Tony laughed and waved it off. “It wasn’t my idea. He chose it.”

Eager to know more, Danny asked quietly, “And what happened next?”

Don glared at Danny, who shrugged shamefully, and was about to scold Danny for speaking out of turn, when Tony interrupted and said that it was okay.

Don sighed and told Danny that he was lucky tonight. Danny grinned at his Dom who shook his head.

“It didn’t work out because he was very jealous when I was at the club, talking to other Doms. He thought that I was involved with them, that I was their sub, which was not so true,” Tony told his friends, aware that Scamper might be listening from below. “Eventually, we broke up because he couldn’t trust me fully.”

“It is not easy finding someone who you can trust and will trust you back,” Don sighed. “I was lucky enough to have found Danny.” Don smiled at his submissive who blushed.

“No, I am lucky to have you in my life, Sir,” Danny whispered as he buried his head into Don’s neck.

Tony was suddenly jealous of what was between Don and Danny. It was as clear as a crystal that they both loved and trusted each other. He wished that he could have that with someone. He thought he found it with Jerry, and then Gibbs but both relationships didn’t work out. Of course, in Gibbs’s case it was slightly different, because Tony didn’t mind submitting fully to Gibbs. He loved him so much that he couldn’t even think of having someone else…someone different to submit to him.

‘Right, I need to stop thinking about Gibbs’, Tony thought to himself as he looked down at Scamper. He hoped that he would find it with Adam/Scamper. He truly has fallen for Adam and now Scamper.

* * * *
It was late when everyone, except Mac and Stella had left. Tony said his goodbyes to them and left the bar enterinig the corridor.

He walked towards the front door, thinking about how the night went. Tony liked the place and knew that he would be definitely coming back. The people here were friendly and if they recognized him, they didn’t say anything. There was no talk about work or cases here, and he was grateful for that.

Tony smiled; Hush was a great organization and he was glad that Mac had invited him. Sure he was nervous about coming here tonight, even more when he heard that Adam was here and in his puppy mode but at the end of the night, Tony was glad to have come. He understood Adam more and if it was possible, he fell more in love with him.

Tony felt happier and at peace for the first time since he moved here and smiled as he put a hand on the door’s handle, about to open it, when he heard footsteps behind him.

“You’re going?”

Tony turned to see Adam standing there, fully clothed and looking slightly disappointed.

“Yeah.” Tony said. “Mac and Stella are still here but everyone else has gone.”

“Oh.”

“And I wasn’t sure if you wanted me here.” Tony said, quietly.

Adam’s eyes widened and he smiled as he took a small step towards Tony. “I always will want you here, Tony.”

Tony blinked a few times before swallowing and looking into Adam’s eyes. Trembling, he asked if Adam wanted to go for a coffee.

Adam nodded eagerly. “Let me go tell Mac,” and then he rushed off to find Mac, leaving Tony standing there, feeling a bit lost and nervous.

Tony might be nervous but he was excited at the same time, at the prospect of getting to know Adam more.

Adam returned with a jacket over his arm. “Let’s go, Tony.”

Once outside, they were faced with a rush of cold air.

“You better put that jacket on, its cold,” Tony pointed to the jacket on Adam’s arm.

Adam agreed and put the jacket on. “Where shall we go?”

Tony was thinking that they would go to a café but suddenly he didn’t want to go to a public place. He wanted to talk to Adam properly and in private. Making a decision, he looked at Adam, nervously.

“My place?”

Adam’s face lightened up and stared at Tony, and then he slowly nodded. Tony beamed and took Adam’s hand with his…and it felt so right.

Together, they went off into the darkness.

* * * *

Arriving at Tony’s apartment – well – really it was Don’s but he felt it was his apartment too; Tony unlocked and opened the door to let Adam in. Once they were inside, Tony closed the door behind them. He told Adam to go into the living room.

“Do you want anything to drink?” Tony asked once they were in the living room.

Adam nodded. “A coffee please.”

“Sure,” Tony smiled. “Sugar, milk?”

“Milk, no sugar.”

Tony went into the kitchen; he heard Adam pacing around the room.

After a few minutes, Tony came out with a couple of coffees, and handed one to Adam.

“Come sit down,” Tony gestured to the conch with his mug and Adam followed.

“How did you like Hush?” Adam asked.

Tony grinned. “It was…interesting. I didn’t realize that Hush belonged to Mac and his family.”

Adam smiled at that. “Mac is awesome. He changed quite a lot of things in Hush when he took over.”

Tony smiled and said," “And I’m glad or I would have never met Scamper.”

Tony kept his eyes on Adam to gauge his reaction to the mention of meeting Scamper. He knew that most submissives liked to keep the puppy and human personas separate. Jerry was a little different, with him, the lines were blurred a little bit and that was part of the reason why they broke up.

“Yes, Scamper told me,” Adam looked to the ground. “He also told me about Jerry.”

Tony swallowed hard; he was right. Scamper was listening.

“I’m sorry.”

“What?” Tony was astounded. “What’ve you got to be sorry about?”

“I know what it feels like to have trusted someone and them not trusting you back,” Adam said, quietly.

Tony stared at Adam and slowly realized that Adam has been through a lot. He gently put a hand on Adam’s chin and pulled him up.

“Look, you don’t have to be sorry about me and Jerry,” Tony looked into Adam’s eyes. “I have learnt a lot from him and for that I will be always grateful.”

Adam blinked as he looked at Tony, with a surprise look on his face. “Really?”

Tony chuckled and made a small nod.

“Scamper told me that Jerry was your first and hopefully not the last,” Adam looked at Tony, hopefully.

Tony nodded and took a deep breath; waiting to hear what Adam was going to say next.

“What did you mean by that?” Adam asked, nervously.

“I met someone and fell in love. I am hoping that he feels the same and will want to be mine.”

“And…. and who that might be?” Adam looked afraid.

Tony smiled and put his arm around Adam and pulled him close. “It’s you, Adam.”

Adam looked up and just stared at Tony for the next few minutes. Tony suddenly got tense and thought that he might have got it wrong…till Adam slowly smiled.

“I feel the same.”

Tony’s body relaxed. “Thank god for that.”

Adam laughed and looked at Tony, grinning. Then Adam got serious. “I thought you were acting strange because of me and Mac and I thought that it might be because you wanted to be with Mac.”

Tony winced as Adam revealed his worry. Tony could’ve hit himself.

“Shit, I should have come to see you.”

Adam shook his head, frantically and was about to say something when Tony interrupted.

“It was a shock to see you and Mac together, and I have to admit that I was jealous of you and Mac, but it wasn’t because I was jealous of you. I was jealous of Mac.”

Adam narrowed his eyes, confused, until Tony clarified.

“I was jealous of him because he was the one who was training you, when it should have been ME.”

Adam’s eyes widened and said softly, “Wow.”

Tony smiled and put a hand on Adam’s face. “I fell hard for you, and I want to take care of you, I want to train you, hell I want everything with you.”

Adam gulped hard. “I want the same, Tony.”

“But tonight is not the time. We need to talk, to get to know each other first.”

Adam nodded, agreeing. They already knew about each other’s fathers and they were abusive to their mothers. In Tony’s case, his father punished him with a whip for his mistakes. In Adam’s case, his father hit his mother with fists and drank too much.

But there was much more about each other that they needed to know. Like for example, Tony didn’t tell Adam much about Gibbs and he knew that before they can do anything further, he needed to tell Adam about his relationship with Gibbs.

Adam knew that he needed to tell Tony about how he and Mac got together and why it wasn’t a sexual relationship. It was because of his previous owner. She has been cruel to him; preferred to keep Adam in puppy mode full time. She neglected him; treated him like shit and didn’t allow him out of his cage. He was only allowed out when there were other guests, and even then, the guests would use him and fuck him like a puppy. When Mac found him, he took Adam away from the bitch and rebuilt him up from scratch, telling him that there would be someone out there for him, someone who will love him for who he is. For a long time, Adam didn’t believe it…until he met Tony.


All night long, they talked and talked about everything until the sun came up. They didn’t even have any sleep at all.

“Look at that,” Tony pointed to the window and Adam saw that it was morning and smiled.

“I am tired, and need to sleep,” Tony told Adam. “I will call the captain and fake it.”

Adam laughed and said that he will call Mac.

When they have finished making calls, Adam and Tony looked at each other, unsure what to do next, whether if they should say goodbye and Adam back to Mac’s apartment.

“I suppose we should say goodbye…” Tony said and saw Adam’s face fall and rushed to say, “…unless you want to stay?”

Adam shyly nodded.

Tony beamed and took Adam’s hand. “Let’s go and sleep. I promise to not do anything to you while we sleep.”

“I know, I trust you,” Adam said, smiling and Tony’s heart beat so quickly. He never thought that he would have this, to have someone to have complete trust in him and gulped hard as he led Adam into the bedroom.

Once they got to their boxers, they got into the bed. Adam asked if it was okay for him to put his arms around Tony while they slept and Tony grinned.

Tony stroked Adam’s hair gently as he rested against his chest.

Finally, they have found each other. They will get through anything together; get over obstacles that stand in their way. Tony hoped that it would not happen for a long, long time.

What he didn’t realize was that something….or someone will come and test their new relationship together.