Title: Pain
Author: Bj Jones
Prompt: #33 – Too Much
Word Count: 110
Author’s Note: Told from Speed’s POV
Rating: FRT
Disclaimer: I think we all know that I don’t own them, cause if I did…. Anyway. Various executives, producers, studios, and writers who have more lawyers on retainer than I want to mess with – own them. I’m not making any money, just borrowing them. I promise to return them to the lab when I’m done with them
Beta: K (Joe)
Warning: Slash – if you don’t like it – don’t read it
2nd Warning: Spoilers from all seasons
Author’s Note: The episode – didn’t happen
Challenge: 100 Drabbles – Horatio Caine/Timothy Speedle

The pain was becoming too much for me to bear. I stared at the gun in my hand. It would be the means of my death. I was too much of a chicken shit to actually pull the trigger so I took the easy way out.

I stopped cleaning it.

One day it would jam and it would be over. Suicide by criminal.

I had it planned. Then I looked into sharp blue eyes. Tears welled up in my own eyes. The softness, the caring was too much and I broke.

I told him everything. About the darkness within me. How I was so lost. I handed him my gun.