Title: Tear Time
Author: Jaxson K.
Pairing: Danny/Jackson, Danny/Lindsey
Ratinig: PG
Summary: Just when you think you're okay, the tears come all over again.


Do you ever have one of those days when you think you have everything under control, and then the bottom falls out? I have those all the times, and it really sucks! Today, in the middle of lunch, a though of Danny ran across my mind, and the tears came tumbling down. The really messed up part is the fact that once these little crying jags start, they usually last the rest of the day and well into the night.

It wasn't always like this though. When Danny was mine, I hardly ever shed a tear, and if I did, it was from happiness. Things were great for a while, and then Lindsey Monroe came along. Somehow I knew she would be the one to tear down what Danny and I had built up, and it turned out that I was right. I began noticing that Danny talked about her incessantly, and that he started losing interest in me.

My suspicions were confirmed by Don Flack. I accidentally overheard he and Danny discussing the Lindsey situation one night when Don had come to visit at our apartment. The two thought I'd gone to bed and were discussing the situation.....

"So, Messer, have you told him yet?"
"You mean about Lindsey and the baby?"
"Well, yeah, dumdass!"
"No! Keep your voice down, Don!"
"Dan, this ain't right.....does he even know that you've been seeing her?"
"I think he suspects.....but you know Jackson; he's not gonna say a word until he's got concrete proof....."
"Concrete proof about what?" I asked as I walked into the living room. Don looked uncomfortable, and Danny looked like he was gonna puke.
"Spit it out, Danny!"
"Now wait just a minute, Jax....."
"I'm afraid I can't do that.....I want to know what the two of you were talking about....."
"Danny's been seeing Lindsey Monroe behind your back, and she just found out that she's pregnant!"
"Dammit, Don.....what the hell are you doing???"
"Messer, somebody had to tell him, and you sure as hell don't have the balls to do it. I'm just trying to do the guy a favor....."
"Some fucking friend you are, Flack!"
"Don, thank you for being honest. Now, if you don't mind. I'd like some time alone with Danny so we can discuss this......"

I watched Don make his way to the door. When he passed by me, he reached and squeezed my shoulder gently. When he left, I locked the door and turned to face Danny......

"Is it true, Danny?"
"She's definitely pregnant?'
"Three months along....."
"Okay.....this is what's going to happen.....you're gonna go and pack a bag and then you are going to go to her, be with her, take care of her, and welcome your child into the world. You need to forget about me, us, and anything that ever happened between us. Do you understand?"
"No 'buts', Danny....."
"What about you?"
"What do you mean?"
"What are you gonna do?"
""What I do or don't do is not your problem anymore, Danny."

Danny did as I asked him to do, and left that night. He went to Linsdey and they had a little baby girl named Lucy. As for me, I managed. If you call crying all night through and crying at the drop of a hat when I think of Danny managing, then I did it spectacular fashion. Maybe there'll come a day when 'tear time' doesn't last so long. I sure as hell hope so!