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Title: Untold Secrets
By: angstytimelord
Pairing: Hannibal Lecter/Will Graham
Fandom: Hannibal
Rating: PG-13
Table: 1drabble
Prompt: 28, Notebook
Author's Note: Sequel to "Running on Empty."
Disclaimer: This is entirely a product of my own imagination, and I make no profit from it. I do not own the lovely Hannibal Lecter or Will Graham, unfortunately, just borrowing them for a while. Please do not sue.

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"I think a vacation would be a very good idea, Will."

Hannibal nodded, crossing one leg over the other as he looked at Will. He jotted a few words down in the notebook on his lap, making Will raise one eyebrow.

"One of these days, I'd like to see whatever it is that you write in that notebook about me," he said, keeping his tone light. "After all, it's my therapy, so shouldn't I know just what it is that you think about me? If it's something bad, then maybe knowing what it is could help me."

Hannibal shook his head, smiling slightly as he glanced back up at Will. "No, Will, I don't believe that you need to see anything that I'm writing down. And it isn't anything bad."

"Well, that's a relief." Will couldn't keep the annoyance out of his voice.

Was he overreacting to such a little thing? Maybe the lack of sleep and feeling overworked was getting to him more than he knew. He really did need a vacation.

He knew that he sounded querulous, and he hated that. The last thing he wanted was for Hannibal to think that he was acting like a spoiled child who was going to throw a temper tantrum because he couldn't get what he wanted. But he did want to see that notebook.

He couldn't help feeling curious as to what his therapist wrote down about him. Whatever it was, it would give him some insight into how Hannibal saw him.

That was one thing he'd been curious about ever since they started these sessions, but it wasn't as though he could simply ask Hannibal such a question.

What was he going to say, anyway? "What do you really think of me?" sounded silly, and it wasn't as if he'd get any kind of an answer by being that direct, anyway. He didn't think Hannibal was going to tell him what he thought; he'd keep his opinions to himself.

Though one thing he was fairly sure that he could get from Hannibal was an honest assessment of his mental state. Maybe he should ask about that.

No, on second thought, he wasn't sure that he wanted to know.

If Hannibal thought badly of him, it was best if he didn't know the truth. It would color their relationship as a psychiatrist and patient, and not in a good way.

He would be able to keep himself from resenting the fact that Hannibal didn't see him in such a good light, and he'd want to force himself to change, which wasn't the point of their sessions. The point was for him to discover more about himself, not to change who he was.

So it was best if that little notebook kept its untold secrets. He didn't need to know what was written in it. It was much better if those secrets were never revealed.

Even so, he knew that he would never stop wondering until he found out.

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