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Title: On the Right Track
Pairing: Jimmy Palmer/Tim McGee
Prompt: 28, Notebook
Disclaimer: This is entirely a product of my own imagination, and I make no profit from it. I do not own the lovely Jimmy Palmer or Tim McGee, unfortunately, just borrowing them for a while. Please do not sue.
***Jimmy walked out of the therapist's office, his mind a blur.
He didn't know exactly how he felt about talking to a therapist about what had happened. They hadn't even gone that deeply into it today.
He'd merely skimmed the surface, and he knew it. Nonetheless, the therapist had written a lot of things down in her little blue notebook, and he couldn't help but wonder just what she was making notes about -- and what he would have to talk about in their next session.
She didn't make him feel uncomfortable, and that was a relief. He'd thought that she would, but that hadn't been the case at all.
He was surprised just how much at ease he felt with her.
But that still didn't make it easy to talk about his ordeal. Jimmy knew that it would never be easy to speak about that, not to his therapist, not to anyone.
Not even to Tim, he told himself with a soft sigh. He should be able to talk to his boyfriend, but Tim was the last person he could speak about what he'd been through easily and openly. He was still afraid, in the back of his mind, that Tim would be repulsed by him.
Jimmy knew that wasn't a possibility. Tim loved him, and would always love him. What had been done to him wasn't going to drive Tim away.
But he still couldn't help feeling tainted, as though what had happened formed a crack in their relationship. It was a bitter pill for him to swallow.
He didn't want that to happen. He wanted their relationship to be as strong and happy and healthy as it had been before, but he knew that it would take a lot of work for him to overcome all that had happened and be the person that he'd been before all of this.
No, he told himself, feeling unhappy at the realization. He could never be the person he'd been before. He'd been changed too profoundly for that.
But that didn't mean that he couldn't make his relationship work.
Maybe that was one of the things his therapist had written down in her little notebook. She had obviously taken note of his fears, his uncertainties about the future.
He was going to have to deal with those fears and uncertainties, and he would have to talk to Tim about all of them. He wanted to do that; he wanted to pour out his heart to his boyfriend and be reassured, to have those fears obliterated and firmly pushed away.
Jimmy took a deep breath, taking his car keys out of his pocket as he headed out of the building. He would talk with Tim tonight, over a romantic dinner.
It was time to start putting things back on the right track again.